I searched for a long time was was wrong with me, how my brain was working. Since I entered 6th grade, I experienced many mood rollercoasters, and personnality swings. I thought I was autistic, but my therapist told me I wasn't. Today I am in 9th grade, I think i might have bpd, i have all the symptoms, fear of abandonment, depression, personnality swings, sometimes i'm feeling paranoid ("yo, why are you looking at your phone as i'm talking to you ? Did i hurt you, no, i'm so sorry, i'm so dumb"). I don't want to take meds, personal choice, I love my mind sometimes, like I can dream while staying awake at the same time (hypnagogic hallucinations), and if I am on meds, i'll be like a zombie... My mom told me "no, you're just a teenager, don't worry", but, did all teenager are depressive and have ******** thoughts ? I don't think so...
To you all who are reading this post, you deserve the best, never forget it, you deserve to be happy !
I'm french btw, so srry if I made some mistakes 👀
Hey! I know I posted a response a while ago, but I just reread it and it was very confusing.
I am in therapy for "highly suspected BPD", and I have a couple things to say. First of all, there's no medication to treat BPD, only the symptoms of it, and usually, it would be short term (think: an emergency), or to treat a comorbid disorder. The most effective thing for BPD is therapy, so I really recommend trying to get into therapy, you don't have to tell your parents why, or you can make up an "excuse" like "school is stressing me out and I need help managing it", or "I'm getting really depressed and need help with safety". Therapy will be so helpful if you have BPD, and a therapist can be helpful determining if that's what you have as well. Hope this helps!